Tuesday, March 07, 2006
hmmMmMMMmm..really think i will undergo depression if not for my frens..hahahaha
jo n miruna, my fellow nerds are just e best studyin companions ever..lol..e shit that we do while "studyin" is realli hilariious. and we ACTUALLY do manage to get stuff done..wheee
todae was ps test..not too bad..felt like i did pretty alrite..
realli feelin crappy abt myself these daes. feel like im just a shadow in e background. whether im there or not doesn't realli matter so why bother aniweis. uni life's takin its toll on me. im not used to it. im used to being surrounded by my frens, havin a big grp to hang out with, eating lunch/dinner together with them, always walking everywhere with at least 1 other person.
now its become usual to walk alone by myself along e corridors, its great even if i can find one other person to talk to or walk ard with or even sit in lecture with. i just find it so hard to make new frens now-a-days. its like, on one hand, thankew very much im happy with the great wonderful frens i have. but on e other hand im thinkin, dun tell me i will never be able to make ONE MEASLY good fren from my uni life?
i mean, i DO have frens from uni. but they're the HI-BYE frens, the sort u msg before u go for lect to ask them chop seat, those u ask abt questions regardin yr module, those u ask to get lect notes for u. but not those u will go out wif OUTSIDE of sch. not those u can study with after sch hours. not those u can arrange to meet just cuz ure bored..sighs...wells..at least ive alr got great frens now itself..shd be happy with wad i haf..
hmm aniweis i finally talked to vik regardin how horrid i was feelin abt e sat outing thing. suprisingly he didnt criticize me but instead, talked to me abt it n made me see things that i haven relli noticed. but he also understood where i was comin from n promised me i wasn't being paranoid and wad i said realli did make sense. (SEE IM NOT PARANOID!)
i dunno if i shd approach them direct abt how im feeling. i mean, they are guys n they tend to see things diff. and things mite not be e same btw us if the approaching thing doesnt work out. n i dun wan vik to feel weird cuz he'd be stuck between us.
sighhhhhh. we'll see how things go after vinoth's birthdae party this sat.
I AM BEING SUCH A WHINY LITTLE PRICK.
slap me please.
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