Monday, February 13, 2006
im just so confused these days..sigh. i dunno if im doing the right thing..there are my peers, doing wad they like during e weekend, enjoying themselves, going out on dates, meeting frens, catching up, studying (argh but yes), resting, having a life..
and then there's ME
my live revolves ard these n almost, pretty much nothing else : school, WORK sitar dance TUITION. and im not having as much fun as i tot i was...
i cant give up tuiton cuz i took an obligation to teach em and its only 2 aniwei. but work. is it realli worth it?
im just getting more n more fed up. first i tell myself, work only 1ce a week. but i increased it to two cuz i was told we're short of staff. then i get calls every other day to take ppl's shifts. YES. i can say NO. but, its not nice when the ppl asking u to cover them have, at point of time, covered u.
when u desperately needed people.
then there's e case of uninformed extension, over-worked, last min re-schedules, forcing us to work, etc etc. i continued working even after school started to get a steady flow of income. then tuition came, but i still continued cuz i loved working..it was fun..
but now, its just gettting tiring. im physically n mentally drained. i dun see myself getting "promoted" either. 5.50 per hr is prob the max i can go. I WANT TO STUDY! as weird as it sounds, i really want to sit down one day, study for hours in a row, not having to rush off to work or tuition.
i also want to be able to say "yes" when my frens ask me out last min..i dun want to have to time my week in advance, knowing i haf absolutely no carefree days. i want sometimes, to have my whole weekend free and not permenantly spend my 7-2 on fridaes at a particular restaurant in holland vllage. i want to be able to come home on weeknights and watch my favourite show and lie ard, not having to worry abt havin no time for myself.
i know i know, im complaining like a baby. but e reason im stating all this out is cuz i want u guys to help me out here.
shd i quit or stay on?
now let me state the CONS of quitting..
i will miss the ppl at ebie badly. very very badly.
i will not have as much money as i would like to
i need the extra money for my planned bdae bash at the end of e year.
i will miss my frens at ebie badly.
so my frens, quit or not? pls tag yr response..i hope to be able to make a decision by this month..and hopefully start march with a firm mind..
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