Saturday, September 17, 2005
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if there is one guy in e world who never fails to make me cry, it is MANI RATNAM. i tell u, he's e best gift to e indian cinema world. i think he's e best! sigh. im so grateful to vasantham central for putting his movies this month. for ONCE, central did well.wheneva i think of mani ratnam, one guy immediately pops into my mind. siva anand. my ex-crush. boy did i haf it bad for him. i was so besotted wif him n i dun even remember why! lol. he was a major fan of mani ratnam. more like a cult follower. he was a student of film studies and mani ratnam was his sort of, idol? hmm wonder how he;s doing now, anand, not mani ratnam. sigh i used to be crazy over him. he alas, was crazy over one of my fren. eh, not unfamiliar to me. lol. sadly, it isnt. :/
well speaking of sad things, todae something bad happened. one of my uncles passed away in the morning. well, his family and my family haven been on good terms for about a year or so because of some conflict, but uncle krishnan has always been a gentleman, he was and still is one of my favourite uncles. he was humble, a gem of a guy and very down to earth. tho there was conflict between e families, he was not involved, and instead of acting all typical tamil picture-ish, he still kept in contact wif my dad, called to wish us well on occasions and never failed to inform us of happenings. he came down for my grandma's funeral last yr, wished me well when he found out i got into NUS and wished umaka when she gave birth. nice guy, uncle krishnan, i know ure in a better place now, cuz u deserve to be. you were one of the nicest uncles i know, and sadly, u left us too soon. however, i trust that yr suffering has ended and you're looking over us now. may u rest in peace.
its quite sad that, or maybe even ironic, that the one person who was in contact wif us thru e conflict, when he left us, noone bothered to inform us. such tat we haf to find out from others. its a sad world. however, my family and i still went down, maybe albit thick skinned you might say, we dun care wad others say. we mite still haf an on-going conflict wif e rest of e family members, but we still went. cuz he was a great man. and he deserved that.
sigh.oh well, im glad he's in a better place now.
ii think im stone hearted. i cry for movies, i didnt cry when i saw him in the casket (they're christian). sigh, maybe its cuz, i heard he was sick, so im glad his suffering has ended. sigh. stone-hearted kala.
in my defence, when i start crying, takes alot for me to stop.
gosh im disgusting. WHY ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? GO AWAY! IM DISGUSTING, SAD AND PATHETIC.
i need professional help.seriously.
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