Monday, September 12, 2005
ahhhhh as usual am bored, thus the blogging. well i wonder if anyone blogs when they;re busy. hmm. there's a tot!well todae miruna told me sth that hurt me real bad. like reali bad. but i guess i cldnt let her know, dun wanna dampen her happy mood. hmmm not like she meant to hurt me, we din haf a fite, god no. but hmm, how do i put it, it came across such that it seemed i was the B.I.T.C.H of her love life. sigh. its not that i dun WANT her to get attached to HIM, but well, she was so unhappy before. my best fren mechanism just went SHOOOOOOT up and i just felt like protecting her. guess i forgot to realise she got a mind of her own, up to her if she still wants to be together wif him. sigh. oh wells, i just feel so distant from her nowadays, tho we see each other more often now cuz of school and sn lectures. will our friendship survive this fragile state. seems like this is the most we haf been thru since 7 yrs of friendship. i just feel, she has kinda replaced me. not just wif him, but others. i dun wanna mention names la. but im sensitive in that way, abt frenships. but as long as she's happy, i'll be happy.
i'll be here for u if u need me, always have been, always will. love u girl. sad to think u think of me that way, but i cant help how u see me. just that, i dun regret anything i did, but if it creates an opinon of me like that, then i guess all i can say is sorrie. love ya. happy birthdae.
sigh such a depressing blog. gonna take a break. maybe bawl my eyes out. heh.
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