Friday, October 17, 2003
haikz..no i did not commit suicide..the reason ive not been blogging for e past few days is cuz ive been so freakin busy runnin abt..doing stuff for e stupid dance comp..runnin ard attendin meetings..choreographin..findin material for costumes blabla..sigh..i seem to be doing everything.and i am NOT the president of ICS.ah well im the leader of e dance team so i guess its expected.sighso i got back my results..A D O.. A for maths..D for chem and O for bio..the O and A i expected..but D i did NOT.i was expectin a C..got 55.5..sigh..but im reali hoping there;s going to be moderation..heard bio is gonna be moderated.. *prays* but seriously..im VERY disappointed wif my chem..i dropped from a B to a D..sigh..i dunno..maybe i studied wrongly this time..gotta reali start hittin the books after all this mad rush is over..oh i got back GP as well..63..its kinda the second highest in class..so obv im happy..muthu hasnt given us back our tamil marks but he told me i got at LEAST an A2.. so im praaying that its an A1..he ACTUALLY praised me on doing well for tamil..wow.. record set..
i juz cant wait for e dance comp to be over..there's actually a tiny part of me praying that we wun make it..i know its unfair to e rest of e team but the semi's will be like barely 2 weeks away from our recording..and its going to be ANOTHER mad rush again.. and this time its going to be worse cuz e standard's going to be higher..sigh..im confused.
i think im falling sick..sneezin n wheezin e whole dae..i suddenly feel very distant from my frens..i dunno why..i mean except the ppl in my school..was referring to the crescent ppl..sunitha n vj n all and even hua they all..sunitha n vj its normal i guess..cuz i haven seen them in mths..but i dunno..i mean hua and gra and the rest maybe its cuz i haven met them as often as i wld haf..shd meet up wif them after e dance comp..vj always says she doesnt haf any tym to meet..even to study..i mean she's not e onli one takign As rite..sigh..hua pearl gra jo all taking as well and we meet always to study..haikx dunno..i juz feel distant..even wif julia n sheih li..i dunno its like..we dun reali tok like we used to..i barely know wads going on in their life.. haikx..is it my fault? am i distancing myself? i dunno..i dun want to..stms i even feel distant from vik..it seems ages ago that we actually met n talked properly..more than a week ago actually..even tho we tok every nite its not da same..we dun reali hf much time cuz he sleeps earli cuz of his stewpig work hours or if not..his phone batt dies..SOMETIMES..i dunno..sigh..sometimes i feel so alone..im feeling reali confused now..
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